Well there was someone who said that life is a wasted. No matter how hard you try, work, having fun, learn, study or improve yourself, etc etc etc. At the end you;ll die and all you have done in your life is a waste. At least for yourself. Once you died then you're gone. From nothing goes to nothing. So what the point is this life?

I may say that I'm much influenced by this idea. To certain point where my wife complained and we have a small fight last weekend. I call it small because nothing thrown or crashed nothing phisically done. But in the other hand I may call it big either because at the end nothing solved. This morning another little fight ensued mostly because I can't keep my mouth shut. Well whatever thats not what I want to write about today.

I must agree that I could not find any good cause or reason to really fight for in this life. Although I keep working, trying to learn something new when such interest occurs, buying new things, playing a game, doing the webcomic, trying to have a goal in life, etc. But this annoying voice is keep coming on me, that these things I did or plan to do is worth nothing at all. So I keep thinking about life and why this life is valuable thing to hold dearly or to walk upon.

I have many times stumble upon some books or articles with advise or quotes that make me think maybe this is the answer. But until now I'm not yet walking this life I have in certainty. I think I have this for now and tomorrow I'll try to find some time to wrote what conclusion I reach so far (with some doubt linger).